I hate liking people sometimes, honestly. “Having a crush” is literally the worst. Usually it starts out with you seeing someone attractive or hearing someone say something you agree with and like and you want to know more and you develop this image of them in your mind even though you know nothing about said person. You tell them stuff before you know it their getting closer to you and you to them and then things start to come up, you get to know them more and they do things that annoy you, or they start to lose interest or they dont treat you like they did when you first started talking. When you start talking to them less and less you notice they literally give their number out or make a post like “someone message, bored” when their talking to you or when you dont talk that day. How do you say.. replaced? I would rather you not pretend to only like me tbh, and not tell me im the only girl you talk to because thats such a bullshit line and its over used, and it’s a lie. Why can’t people just be honest. If you like someone show them.. if you dont then dont toy with them leave them alone. I am so sick of people who flirt with everyone talking to me. Literally leave me alone if your going to do that don’t waste your time on me it will go nowhere.
If you have to force someone to care, force someone to listen to you then its a safe bet to assume they dont care about you. Just let them go. Let them mature and find someone who they actually want to listen to and be there for.
I just dont understand how someone who apparently cares so much can make you feel this insignificant. Make you feel like your not even worth their time. Its pathetic how people get so mad when you do next to nothing to them, get them mad enough to not talk to you anymore but they can’t see what they do to you.
Its the 21st century. Is love lost? Can a guy not wait for the one he loves? Was she not worth the wait? Love is lost.
If you’re wondering what gets me, what really gets me i’ll tell you. I could sit around for hours reading quotes and small passages of my favorite authors. If i could have a book with all those things in it i’d take it around everywhere with me. That way i would never be bored and i would never feel lonely.
Its not just that I’m scared to lose people. I’m scared of all the things or events in their life I will miss out on that I want to be there for. You see them post about what their doing but they stop talking to you and telling you things. Its heartbreaking to know they can go on fine without you. Or even more heartbreaking if they go down a self destructive path. I’d like to hope for the best by thinking they will come out as a stronger better person. You hope they will find someone better who they deserve. But deep down your also sad it couldnt be you.