I hate liking people sometimes, honestly. “Having a crush” is literally the worst. Usually it starts out with you seeing someone attractive or hearing someone say something you agree with and like and you want to know more and you develop this image of them in your mind even though you know nothing about said person. You tell them stuff before you know it their getting closer to you and you to them and then things start to come up, you get to know them more and they do things that annoy you, or they start to lose interest or they dont treat you like they did when you first started talking. When you start talking to them less and less you notice they literally give their number out or make a post like “someone message, bored” when their talking to you or when you dont talk that day. How do you say.. replaced? I would rather you not pretend to only like me tbh, and not tell me im the only girl you talk to because thats such a bullshit line and its over used, and it’s a lie. Why can’t people just be honest. If you like someone show them.. if you dont then dont toy with them leave them alone. I am so sick of people who flirt with everyone talking to me. Literally leave me alone if your going to do that don’t waste your time on me it will go nowhere.
“I like people and I like them to like me, but I wear my heart where God put it, on the inside.”
All i ever wanted from you was for you to respect me, someone you don’t even know, enough for you to tell me what happened to me. To tell me why this all happened to me. I contacted you three years ago and asked you this. Then you wait three years to message me back and now your ignoring my questions. I’m so frustrated i wish i could shake you or make you care about me. I don’t consider us family, or related at all but i do want to know about my past and about yours. How much of your valuable time are you willing to give up to literally Facebook message me and tell me everything, you don’t even have to write me a letter.
I don’t care about stuff or going out on fancy dates. I would have, and did try everything i could to make you happy and you still lied to me. I don’t understand why. What is wrong with me? What wasn’t good enough? I know you’re not supposed to blame yourself for what other people do but idk i just don’t understand how this all happened. When we first started daiting we agreed we were tired of looking for relationships and breaking up and finding new people we just wanted us. We wanted to stop looking. We also agreed not o lie to eachother because the truth is better even if it’s not what the other wanted to hear.. I never lied. I was honest with you. I had to listen to you complain and bitch at me if i went a few hours not telling you what i was doing. You made me feel so bad about hanging out with my friends and going out you made me cry and then you would swear, yell at me then hangup on me. But i come to find out you lied to me for a month. And for the first time i actually got so mad at you and i had a reason unlike you all those times you know what you told me? “Your upset well then you fix it” So no. I don’t care if you get closure or not i’m not talking to you ever again. You broke my heart. So don’t tell me you love me because you don’t know what love is. I’m left heartbroken and I just wish it could go back to the way things where this is killing me. Im more upset now then I was. It’s all I think about.