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xo


I hate liking people sometimes, honestly. “Having a crush” is literally the worst. Usually it starts out with you seeing someone attractive or hearing someone say something you agree with and like and you want to know more and you develop this image of them in your mind even though you know nothing about said person. You tell them stuff before you know it their getting closer to you and you to them and then things start to come up, you get to know them more and they do things that annoy you, or they start to lose interest or they dont treat you like they did when you first started talking. When you start talking to them less and less you notice they literally give their number out or make a post like “someone message, bored” when their talking to you or when you dont talk that day. How do you say.. replaced? I would rather you not pretend to only like me tbh, and not tell me im the only girl you talk to because thats such a bullshit line and its over used, and it’s a lie. Why can’t people just be honest. If you like someone show them.. if you dont then dont toy with them leave them alone. I am so sick of people who flirt with everyone talking to me. Literally leave me alone if your going to do that don’t waste your time on me it will go nowhere. 

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When I Love, I Love Hard.


“There are two kinds of people in this world. Hopeless romantics and realists.A realist just sees that face and packs it in with every other pretty girl they’ve ever seen before. The hopeless romantic becomes convinced that God put them on Earth to be with that one person.”

I hope someday, someone thinks of me as that girl, the one meant for them. Someone who does things simply because they want to make me happy. Someone who doesn’t keep track of my wrong doings or their favors for me. Someone i would also do anything for, give them the world. Maybe i need to grow up a little more first or maybe it will happen when i’m older but i can’t wait to share my life with someone who wants to do the same. 

Age Does Not Determine Maturity


What’s worse? Not being there for someone when they need you after they have been there for you or being extremely unhappy and being there for them. I’m trying to be a decent person because i do care but when they have this Victim Mentality what can I do really? It’s taking everything i have not to just leave and be done. I’m sick of people making me feel like this and just letting it happen. If i did leave it would be like every other time i have before, by that i mean, forgetting about them and never talking to them again and having no emotions towards it. 

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If you tell me to jump then I’ll die
In my dreams I’m there
I always hoped that I’d learn how to fly
In my dreams I’m there

You can tie my hands to the walls
But you can’t tie my dreams to this place
I might fall like a rock from your heart
But you won’t see me fall from grace

Fate always loses hold
Like electric sparks in my heart
Fate always loses hold
Now be a good girl and do what you’re told

If you tell me to jump then I’ll die
In my dreams I’m there
I always hoped that I’d learn how to fly
In my dreams I’m there

I leave my memoirs in blood on the floor
And my fears with the nurse on the stairs
I’m only going where you’ll be someday
So don’t say rest in peace in your prayers

Fate always loses hold
Like electric sparks in my heart
Fate always loses hold
Now be a good girl and do what you’re told

I hope you remember me
I hope you never pretend for me
I hope you remember me
I hope you

Fate always loses hold
Like electric sparks in my heart
Fate always loses hold
Now be a good girl and do what you’re told

I hope you remember me
I hope you never pretend for me
I hope you remember me
I hope you never forget about me

I hope you remember me
I hope you never pretend for me
I hope you remember me
I hope you


Its not just that I’m scared to lose people. I’m scared of all the things or events in their life I will miss out on that I want to be there for. You see them post about what their doing but they stop talking to you and telling you things. Its heartbreaking to know they can go on fine without you. Or even more heartbreaking if they go down a self destructive path. I’d like to hope for the best by thinking they will come out as a stronger better person. You hope they will find someone better who they deserve.  But deep down your also sad it couldnt be you.

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