Tagged: angst


I hate liking people sometimes, honestly. “Having a crush” is literally the worst. Usually it starts out with you seeing someone attractive or hearing someone say something you agree with and like and you want to know more and you develop this image of them in your mind even though you know nothing about said person. You tell them stuff before you know it their getting closer to you and you to them and then things start to come up, you get to know them more and they do things that annoy you, or they start to lose interest or they dont treat you like they did when you first started talking. When you start talking to them less and less you notice they literally give their number out or make a post like “someone message, bored” when their talking to you or when you dont talk that day. How do you say.. replaced? I would rather you not pretend to only like me tbh, and not tell me im the only girl you talk to because thats such a bullshit line and its over used, and it’s a lie. Why can’t people just be honest. If you like someone show them.. if you dont then dont toy with them leave them alone. I am so sick of people who flirt with everyone talking to me. Literally leave me alone if your going to do that don’t waste your time on me it will go nowhere. 


But I’m Still Happy.

Since i was a kid all i wanted to be was a Rescue Swimmer in the Coast Guard.
Now i am meeting with the recruiter soon and training to be able to (physically).
I found out they are only accepting 20 people in the country to go.
But obviously I’m not going to just give up.
There’s a test, asvab test that is an overall knowledge test. No, you can’t fail it but if you score low you can end up not getting the job you want. I took a practice test and i got 58% I’m reading a book on how to improve test scores because i need a 70 something to get into the CG. I’m actually stressing about this and my mom is being ridiculous. I’m sick atm and all she is doing is picking fights with me, and i feel like shit. She’s yelling at me and I’m not even doing anything wrong like wtf. So of course me being me, i start yelling too and She actually told me to leave. Like what the fuck is your problem, grow up. No one just tells their kids to leave home, especially when i actually have before, because she told me to. Like I’m not under enough stress, thank you SO much.