Category: Sad

Should Be Sleeping But


I don’t know why but lately I’ve been thinking about people and how I feel about different things. Like for example I’ve noticed some people are just plain rude for no reason.. are you really so desperate for people to agree with you that you have to put other people down to make it happen? Anyways I also have been thinking about how you want people to see you and how people do see you is different. I want people to understand I care and when they talk I care, like im not just listening to them to just wait for something to say. Two random thoughts, I should be sleeping.

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Excuses


I just dont understand how someone who apparently cares so much can make you feel this insignificant. Make you feel like your not even worth their time. Its pathetic how people get so mad when you do next to nothing to them, get them mad enough to not talk to you anymore but they can’t see what they do to you.

Chivalry is dead.


Since when did texting become a big gesture. saying “i care” instead of physically showing it. In reality John Cusack wouldn’t wait outside your window with a boombox for you with no hope of an answer. In reality a guy will text you he is sorry. Never once coming over to show it or even easier.. a phone call. Chivalry is dead. and that breaks my heart. You open up to someone after they tell you to, you trust them only to get shot down and end up picking yourself back up, being strong for yourself. How can someone text you sorry hope you forgive me.. and THAT’S IT! That is all they say.. they dont pursue you they don’t try any harder. That is what you get and that is what 21st century love looks like. Starting to learn you yourself are the only one you should trust, don’t let others decide your happiness.. they will drop it. They will drop it every time.

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If you tell me to jump then I’ll die
In my dreams I’m there
I always hoped that I’d learn how to fly
In my dreams I’m there

You can tie my hands to the walls
But you can’t tie my dreams to this place
I might fall like a rock from your heart
But you won’t see me fall from grace

Fate always loses hold
Like electric sparks in my heart
Fate always loses hold
Now be a good girl and do what you’re told

If you tell me to jump then I’ll die
In my dreams I’m there
I always hoped that I’d learn how to fly
In my dreams I’m there

I leave my memoirs in blood on the floor
And my fears with the nurse on the stairs
I’m only going where you’ll be someday
So don’t say rest in peace in your prayers

Fate always loses hold
Like electric sparks in my heart
Fate always loses hold
Now be a good girl and do what you’re told

I hope you remember me
I hope you never pretend for me
I hope you remember me
I hope you

Fate always loses hold
Like electric sparks in my heart
Fate always loses hold
Now be a good girl and do what you’re told

I hope you remember me
I hope you never pretend for me
I hope you remember me
I hope you never forget about me

I hope you remember me
I hope you never pretend for me
I hope you remember me
I hope you


Its not just that I’m scared to lose people. I’m scared of all the things or events in their life I will miss out on that I want to be there for. You see them post about what their doing but they stop talking to you and telling you things. Its heartbreaking to know they can go on fine without you. Or even more heartbreaking if they go down a self destructive path. I’d like to hope for the best by thinking they will come out as a stronger better person. You hope they will find someone better who they deserve.  But deep down your also sad it couldnt be you.

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